Write This Down

True confession: This is not the first blog I have started. Turns out I have a nasty habit of starting things of this nature, and then failing miserably. Maybe not miserably, but failing nonetheless. Kind of reminds me of the Friends episode, you know, the one with all the new years resolutions, and Rachel had resolved the previous year to keep a diary. Monica goes and retrieves said diary in order to illustrate the point that Rachel cannot keep a resolution, and reads it outloud. It reads something along the lines of "Dear Diary, my new years resolution is to write in you every day! See you tomorrow!"...then, NOTHING. So maybe I'm not that bad.

Generally, when I start a new journal, I put forth a valiant effort. I keep lists of things that I am thankful for, I keep track of prayer requests. I even manage to fill the first ten or so pages of my most recently purchased moleskin with a few days worth (I think a few times I've even gone a month or two) of incredibly interesting observations that I've made about my life and those around me, wisdom beyond my years, ranting and raving about life's frustrations, quotes, desperate pleas with God to answer my prayers, lingering thoughts or goals for the future...then, NOTHING.

So I suppose that the "glass is half full" perspective on this journaling situation would be that at least I keep trying, right? I mean, if at first you don't succeed, dust yourself off and try again? Well, yes. But I think it is important to remember that if I keep trying the same tactics, with little or no motivation to do a better job this next time around, I will continue failing at my journaling efforts, and killing innocent trees in the process. Alas, I enter the blogosphere.

Ideally this "blog" (a word which I will have to get used to, and don't yet take seriously) will be a place for me to reflect on my life and my world as I see it, and will also be a magical place of commitment. I assume that (once I actually tell people that I have a blog), the added pressure of not letting my loyal readers and fans down (probably Laura, Hilary, and Emily, if I'm lucky...) will add to my ability to commit to this place.

So, here's to blogging!