Ready to Run

I signed up for a half marathon. It's in May, which is nice, considering it has been ages since I have been a consistent and disciplined runner. I'm seriously excited about it. My characteristic blind optimism operating in full force, I got new shoes, picked up the doctor recommended knee braces since I jacked myself up in high school lacrosse, loaded up my Shuffle with good jams, and set out for my first run of the year.

And, it SUCKED. I mean, I used to love running. But that's because I used to be good at it. And I know that in time I will grow to love running again. But after about a month of finals, holiday parties and holiday travel and holiday laziness, it was the longest 2.73 miles of my life. I was miserable. Who chooses a loop with serious hills when they haven't run and barely even worked out in a couple months anyway?! Oh well. I already paid my 65 dollars for the wine country half marathon, and I have five months to get better...

When I got back from the torture run, my sweet roommate Jen was sitting at the table having breakfast. After I told her I wanted to shoot myself for 25 of the 30 minutes I was out, she said... "Yeah, I was going to say something, but you were so excited. Getting back into it is miserable." And then she kind of tried not to laugh at me.

I know this. But, does whatever really doesn't kill you actually make you stronger? I hope so. That stupid little amateur run near killed me, but since it didn't, I sincerely hope that the old running muscles are already being strengthened. Because I'm ready. 2009 is going to be the year that I am transformed back into a runner. Pray for me though. Your encouragement and suggestions for enduring the terrible beginning phase will be much appreciated.